I was going to write this really interesting blog on how Pathwork challenges us to find truth, and not just accept what we have been told to believe. In my opinion, it is one of the strengths of the Pathwork, and I was very excited about writing it.
I was going to tell you this story about my early Pathwork years, when I was attending a non-denominational Christian Church, and in my earnest desire to learn all I could, I was attending their Bible Study after the service. I sat down and wrote how some of the things they were teaching were concerning to me, and I expressed my concerns in class. A friend next to me tried to reassure me by telling me I was just a “baby Christian”, and that I would eventually understand. I wrote how I clearly understood how I was being told to accept what was being taught without questioning it. Spiritual Maturity? I think not.
And then a funny thing happened. I pulled out my Bible, and went to Romans, which was the Book they had been studying in that Bible Study class I took, probably 10 years ago. I began reading, hoping to come across the passage that had troubled me so deeply in that class, so I would have ammunition to finish the blog. It was something about telling me that without God I was worthless. (Which I interpreted as, I was born worthless and until I was ‘saved’ my original nature was worthless. That experience had sent me home crying all those years ago.) But I had to read from the beginning of the Book in order to find the passage, and as I did I was surprised and amused. After many years of Pathwork, I heard the material in a completely different way. In a much more benign way. I realized that my enormous difficulty with that passage was more a result of my own Image of my worthlessness than the actual message of the Bible or the Bible Study teacher. I had projected my own beliefs onto this teaching and this teacher, and then railed against it, in my fear that it was really true. I have challenged that Image quite a bit over the years, which has enabled me to see more clearly. I can also see how the author of that book wrote from his Images, the Bible Study teacher taught from his Images, and my friend who was trying to reassure me but completely missed the mark, was coming from her own Images. And in that there is so much compassion and forgiveness.
I have told that Bible Study story for years, as an example of how fundamentalist Christianity can be so hurtful. I think I am finally ready to take MY responsibility in the exchange now, and to let go of the story. What a relief. Pathwork really does challenge us to find the truth, even if it takes ten years. And it works. And I am so grateful.